Have you ever been lucky enough to find that person. That you don’t need, but life’s better with, by far than without. The person, All the rom-com movies talk about. The, actual ”ONE”.
I found mine.
Unexpectedly. And spontaneously.
And it was easy.
The Dating. The commitment. The ups and downs. To sharing a house together. Sharing a life together.
The one person you can’t wait to tell everything to!
Who makes you laugh, like you’ve never cracked up – Nearly peed-your-pants kind of laugh.
The little things you’d normally get annoyed by. Don’t seem to bother you at all, with this one.
But Annoying each other; that never gets old.
To hanging out and never getting sick of each other’s company.
To the point you actually miss them, even if you’ve only been a part a few hours.
The smiles. Oh, how he makes me smile!
The conversations that are so deep, they make you understand yourself better. They make you understand your life better; the world.
And you can so easily, see yourself creating a little Future together. A future full of hope and undoubtedly, a future full of love.
But then oneday, your world suddenly changes.
And everything you gotten used to, disappears.
Some say ”it will never work…” To walk away.
We thought it mightn’t work. But giving up on each other was never an option for me.
I knew It would be hard.
But we chose. And We continue to choose. Each other. Again and again.
To wake up to an empty side of the bed, every morning, was kind of sad. Then the times when I checked my phone, hoping for that text. Or that call.
I may have broke down, crying at unexpected, embarrassing moments when I was reminded of something he said, a place we visited. A moment we created together. A song we danced along to.
Or simply, just missing him. That one happens a lot. All days. Every day.
But we are strong.
We force a smile when we talk about Him; because nothing could describe to someone how you deeply, achingly, painfully miss him.
It would be easy to step back.
Be we simply chose to love.
With a promise that we’ll be back in each other’s arm’s soon enough.
By Far, the most emotionally testing, draining, lonely investment I have ever embarked upon.
But I’ll all be worth it, when he’s back.
When he’s truly home.
It’ll be worth the tears, the trials, the struggles, the doubts, the self doubts.
Because sometimes distance makes everything clearer.It makes you realise; it’s worth it all. This is your person. There is no one on this planet like them. You crave them. You are theirs.
That life is always going to be better with that person. And nothing is stronger than the love we have.
So I’ll keep on, keeping on: chosing him. Choosing to love him everyday.
Because the promise his eyes, gave mine. During the hardest goodbye of my life, said it all. That this is real, undoubtable, uncontrollable.. love.
And love is all you really, ever need.
Keep choosing love.